Xander Reed Lowe

a big part of my is  4 my XMan

My darling baby boy,

Mommy has been thinking of you alot today as today you would have been 18 months old. I wonder what you would be doing "if" you were still here with us. Probably ornery as always huh? Baby I wish you hadn't left and everyday I always have you with me in my heart! I really pray for peace for not only me but the entire family. Everyone misses you so very much!  We will always fight CF for you and for your brother and sister.  Daddy misses you always wanting him to pick you up when he would come home from work. Xander, you had such a beautiful personality while here on Earth. You have taught me so much even as young as you were.  Peace and love to you, grandma Lowe, and your sister Baylee.

Love,

Mommy

Xander man,

3 months...3 long months since you left us but yet it seems like only yesterday.  Mommy misses you so very much that it really hurts me inside.  Honey I wish you were here with us and will always wonder what if you hadn't left us...take care my darling...

Mom

2/14/10 ~ Our darling pumpkin pooh Xander, we miss you more than words can ever express. For you my dear here is a picture that mommy thought was cute :) I hope you are resting well and continue to watch over us.  Baby, we miss your smile, laughter and love you gave to us!  Happy Valentine's day honey!

2/9/10 - Last night momma went to a meeting of the local Chapter of Compassionate Friends which is a group of parents. grandparents or siblings who have lost a child. Daddy could not go yet...maybe someday we can go together. I found it very hard to go alone...maybe I wasn't ready. We miss you every day and even the little things are still so very bothersome for mommy.  Mommy still wonders if I failed you in some way??? I know this is a question I will not know until momma sees you again.

You are never ever far from my thoughts and my heart still beats for you my sweetheart!

Love you forever!

Mommy